I do not like it

This is a very different Christmas for Mr. Outdoors and I. Normally our Christmas' are fun filled and intense with shopping, cooking and being excited for all the fun Christmas holds. We are losing his youngest brother to bone cancer.  He has fought the fight for 14 years and it just keeps coming back.  Brother Bill retired from the Highway patrol as a Major, retired from the Marines also as a Major and worked for a branch of the Government in charge of personnel.  Acquired his Masters degree at middle age, raised 2 boys and a daughter who have turned out to be not only great people but the sweetest kids you could ever meet.  The first wife and Mother of his children did not have any interest in raising the children, enter second wife.  She has been and continues to be such an awesome woman and member of our family.  Has taken such good care of our brother all these 30 years, and we applaud her for all she has done.  Compassion knows no one greater than Elaine.  So we are spending days by brothers bedside, telling lots of fun stories of Mr. Outdoors and his childhood,sitting there ever watchful should he need something, all the while knowing these are his last days here on earth.  Such an unreal feeling...losing ones siblings.  I do not like it.  I do take comfort knowing he will be in the arms of our Father and joined with his parents in Heaven.  God Bless our Brother.